Ora vuol farsi chiamare Sydney Fernandes e, a dire il vero, è il suo vero nome! Ora esce 21x7 - The Public Privacy of Fostter Riviera, documentario sulla sua vita prima, durante e dopo il porno! E' mercoledì 6 agosto e sul mio profilo Facebook viene pubblicato un post da un tale Sydney Fernandez. Il link è relativo a un documentario sulla vita di una ex pornostar e ho voluto saperne di più...
Così contatto Sydney
e scopro che è la celebre pornstar Fostter Riviera
, volto Lucas Ent. e MEN.com
, portoghese emigrato in Germania, giovanissimo ma con già all'attivo un notevole numero di partecipazioni e iniziative...
Mi dice "sentiamoci su Skype, meglio...", così mi connetto. Da li a poco capirò che Sydney ha tanta voglia di confidarsi, che la vita con lui non è stata ne troppo generosa ne troppo poco e che nell'abbandono della carriera non c'è nessuna motivazione negativa, bensì una scelta d'amore... Ma andiamo per ordine!
Come capita spesso con Jimi Paradise, la gaffe è dietro l'angolo e la mia prima domanda fa, inavvertitamente, riferimento a una pratica sessuale... LOL
Sidney comincia su XTube, mi racconta. Il suo esordio è amatoriale, quindi, ma il successo di follower è clamorso, difficile da non notare se si è nell'industria del porno...
Jimi Paradise: So... Tell me something about u, fist of all... Where are u from, how old are you?
Sydney Fernandes: Fist lol ah ah ah... I am from Portugal, I am 24 years old, and I live in Germany for 2 years, now in Köln since more than a year.
Jimi Paradise: When did u started your porn career? At what age, with who?
Sydney Fernandes: as an official porn actor professional 2 years ago, but for 4 years that i'm in the business, first 2 years as an amateur on online website, but since i was 18 i was trying only with 20 i really did. I became famous on XTUBE with more than 250K views of my videos...
Jimi Paradise: And u has been notice from someone in porn industry or did you proposed to someone?
Sydney Fernandes: i was proposing myself very much and always got a no. I have done my first shoot by invitation throw twitter or Kinkondemand, with Damien Crosse and Scott Carter directed by the super star from straight porn, Nacho Vidal. The second shoot also directed by Nacho was only with Damien but for MEN.com
Jimi Paradise: So, great names...
Sydney Fernandes: yes, i start with huge names and actually my idol Damien Crosse, super nice guy!
Jimi Paradise: Really? Tell me about the staff and pornstars. Your sensation in front of them, their way to work, kindly or not... Are you a bit exhibitionist?
Sydney Fernandes: Well i was very afraid, nervous and, lets say, feeling like "its my chance but fuck i can't even talk". It was in Madrid, i was shy and on my corner all the time, when Scott arrived he came to me with big smile but desapear, other actors were there too and then Damien arrived, i pray for God to shoot with him cuz i thought was only with Scott, were around 30 more people there for the b-roll (story part of the movie) to make the presence in the background, were including woman men young people between 20 and 30 years old... I was like "OMG what tha fuck", then we made the make up and was when Damien talked with me and said we gonna shoot, and then i got panic... lol... so we did it and we did it well! It was great and amazing, today with the time i look to the past and i behave a bit like them, like "oh ok, just one more shoot, lets do it great lets do it amazing sexy horny!"
Jimi Paradise: Ok... So, did u worked only in Madrid or in other cities?
Sydney Fernandes: That was the first shoot, after that i moved to Germany - Köln, what make my travel to Madrid very hard and after 2 months i got an invitation to shoot for Ali Lyck, the producer of SneakerSex.net and kallamacka. Was super, was one week on one boat/yatch, shooting everyday total of 4 or 5 scene i don't remember well (well i have more than 200)
Per Sydney, quindi, inizia una vita nel mondo dei suoi sogni! Da amatore di successo a professionista del porno, collega egli stesso di quei nomi tanto bramati e tanto sognati... Ma il destino aveva in serbo per lui altri progetti e una strada ormai ben spianata arriva ad un bivio...
Sydney Fernandes: Then the funny happened... I felt in love during the scenes, during the Holidays-Work i felt in love with the producer (Ali Lyck) that became my bf, then i decide to move from Köln to Berlin from one month for another :D
Ali showed me the world, the city and the experiences with Sneakersex. He is probably the most experienced guy in the world with this fetish, lets say that he shoot the first movies from Peto Coast, Jordan Fox and other super stars from today, we have been 9 months together and in Berlin i found a regular job as head of user interface (I am screen media designer)
Sydney decide, quindi, di abbandonare la carriera hard per amore, trova un lavoro fisso molto più tranquillo, ma il mondo che l'aveva lanciato così repentinamente e che, altrettanto repentinamente aveva dovuto abbandonare, lo chiamava... Dopo tutto non erano state brutte esperienze a convincerlo ad abbandonare, tutt'altro... Il vortice dell'hard lo richiama, questa volta per qualcosa di ancora più spinto...
Sydney Fernandes: Then the porn was waiting: i got invitation a lot of time to shoot for All Real Bareback, but i denied all the time, it was a big step and the exposition in this area can be dangerous, i quit my relation with Ali and I decided ok lets try is by my own risk (marketing risk) and I did it last year in march, almost one year after start in the same month, march i made my first shoot and march 2013 my first shoot bareback, than was when everything started like a roller-coaster...
Jimi Paradise: So, a first break from porn with your bf, and now... A most definitive...Stop? What happened?
Se il successo della prima volta era stato repentino, questa volta è planetario! Sydney si trova nei suoi contatti i grandi nomi dell'industria del porno: all'amore appena finito prende posto l'amore per un mondo da sempre ambito e sognato!
Sydney Fernandes: bareback expose myself to other world, i was single and my fame felt down from the sky in 1 min, i found myself everywhere and shooting for all the big studios with my idols most of the time, they became my good friends like Hans Berlin, Jordan Fox and even Michael Lucas that i have no scene together are now on my Whatsapp list of conversations of regular: now was LOVE!
Ma non è oro tutto quello che riluce...
Sydney Fernandes: Famous, super star world wide, and porn actor means NO CHANCE to trust people, no chance to find good sex, i am bottom mostly but in porn i am mostly top, and my messages inbox on my social networks is full of invitations FROM BOTTOMS TOO... lol
Il successo mondiale non da alla testa al nostro Sydney, ma succede qualcos'altro: Fostter Riviera stava progressivamente cancellando il suo vero io! Sydney Fernandez rischiava di scomparire, con tutti i suoi pensieri, sentimenti e passioni... Ma anche in questo caso il destino ha una riposta, è Sydney però che deve, ancora una volta, scegliere!
Sydney Fernandes: than in november, 15th of november 2013, i meet a guy! (i mean i propose him on this date so i meet him 3 weeks before) a guy that didn't know me, didn't want know me on that way and was like "i give a shit who u are"... That made me feel in love! Someone that was finally interested on myself on my real "ME" and on real person with normal ordinary life "like an human"... That person is Joe, my ex-bf :(
Hey, un momento! Mi dici che trovi l'amore, si chiama Joe, non sa del tuo passato e lo definisci "il tuo ex"??? Cos'è sucesso???
Sydney Fernandes: he accepted in the beginning but the fame was growing day after day, was not possible anymore to go out all the time fighting, cuz we didn't had privacy and the people was all the time seeing fostter and then i promise him to quit my career in november this year, then i was so in love and see the man of my life there so sad and with so much pain on my side all the time, i decide t o quit as surprise from one day to another in 1st of april!
Ok, la vita di coppia è insostenibile con la fama ingombrante di Fostter, per cui abbandoni nuovamente le scene... Cosa va storto questa volta nella relazione?
Sydney Fernandes: He was suprised, but i wanted show him a prove of love... Everyone knew me as Fostter, even the post man and the people on the super market knew me as Fostter Riviera! For weeks i was all the time explaining the people I was fostter cuz was my way to protect my privacy and my external exposure whatever "name"...
But the problems in the relation was still on so we decide to quit! We were living together and trying to find a new flat a lot of stuff happen between us that we want keep it private we were MONOGAMOUS, or I was monogamous and i found some lies he found some lies and was the reason to quit but i believe that we both still feeling a lot we quit friendship and now we are again kind of friends...
Ok, la ferita è ancora aperta (a dimostrarlo una pausa di 5 minuti durante la quale litiga al telefono con l'ex)... Quindi non tutto è perduto! Ma se il mondo del porno non aveva nulla che non andava e se la tua vita privata è ancora indefinita, cosa ti ha spinto a fare un documentario?
Sydney Fernandes: the movie that I am doing is to show all of this: i had a great life, i had always, i am super connected to my friends and my family that knows everything, but everything gets mixed up when i am in public cuz i have a very big problem in separate Fosster from Sydney, the movie documentary that i am doing is exactly to show that, if i gonna find my way back to myself or if i gonna be Fostter personality for ever, in private i can be myself but in public is hard and when i get drunk (because now as Sydney I can) wow than i'm definitely Fostter
Jimi Paradise: Is very hard... :(
Sydney Fernandes: Sometimes is really hard! Friends are a very small group of people, the rest is just people that know me or want to know me or want to fuck: i am not a guy for dates! I hate that spontaneous fuck dates! I have Grindr (actually 2), Scruff, Gayromeo, etc... More than 15 apps but i almost never use them and to date me is very hard, i want someone to share my life, to share my moments, the real ones, to share my pride, to share my house, everything! Someone to care about and that cares about me: I WANT REAL LOVE!
I am very happy, don't want to look like "poor guy", i am really happy, but i still want some goals in my life: JOE was that one!
Jimi Paradise: So... With the docu-film you want to tell something about u to other people, something to your love (i imagine), but also something to yourself? And, second thing, u didn't stop porn for something wrong in Porn Industry, but for love! That's amazing!
Sydney Fernandes: yes with the movie i want to show to the world that porn looks amazing, looks great but also bring u a dark side of loneliness, depression, drugs and a lot of bad things... But also bring u good friends, goof connections and possibility to travels around the world beside money. For me everyone that does porn just for the money is excluded from my list, i want show how hard can be just be ordinary, how hard can be just be normal, how hard can be just to be simple again and normal, the movie is to show the road trip of a guy of 24 years old that was a super star of gay porn and now just want to be a good designer... I mean i had a huge campaign that still on behind me, fragrances, dildoes, online shot with my own fashion line and much more...
The documentary wants to show all the secrets from porn from the injections in the dick to get hard for hours to the parties with private friends in private environment
Jimi Paradise: So u def. stopped with porn?
Sydney Fernandes: yes
Jimi Paradise: How do you imagine Sydney of the future?
Sydney Fernandes: i think i gonna still doing some shoots very low and not often, some shows cuz i love my friends and i want work with them...
Jimi Paradise: You speak about a fashion line, and what also?
Sydney Fernandes: continue behind the cameras but in front i don't think that i will ever go back...
Jimi Paradise: As designer?
Sydney Fernandes: yes, i create my own fashion line: i am famous cuz i am not muscle or super hot like all the others, i am just the normal street guy, looking normal slim maybe too much, that make all the gay normal guys believe that they are sexy enough to be like me, that made me create my own fashion like cuz we always have problem to find clothes to make us sexy i was all the time editing my shirst, so i decide to create a fashion style for slim young gay guys, that gonna make them look awesome like a official muscle super porn tattooed porn star like my super good friend (sister) Jonathan Agassi :D
Quindi una linea per i ragazzi magri che vogliono apparire super-sexy come i proprio idoli, ma anche il progetto del documentario: Sydney cerca finanziatori, ha già raccolto 1,000 dollari in meno di una settimana, ma ne ha bisogno 12,000...
Jimi Paradise: A SUPER SWEETt idea! And what about directing?
Sydney Fernandes: i was porn director on mostly of my scenes for ARB (Allrealbareback) and i know how to do good material so why not create new stars like I have done with my best friend and almost twin Alejandro Alvarez, he was like my biggest fan, also from Portugal and he come to Koln to learn with me, today u can see his great and amazing work mostly by himself (he learn fast)
But now i'm focus on that project that is going throw very big problems of funders :(
Jimi Paradise: I hope this interview will help u also with this, i see 12,000 as target...
Sydney Fernandes: we need urgently funders and if 1K people will donate 10€ we can go forward with this and finish the great project to present of all the film festivals, gay and straight because is time to show to all of them what is the real life of a porn star!